"I'm not blaming you." she's quick to clarify. "It's not anyone's fault. Or, at least, it's not any one person's fault alone. I wasn't exactly jumping at the chance to show you anything different."
For all their unwillingness to see her as anything but sweet little Fred, there had been an equal unwillingness on her part to shatter all their illusions.
Except...
"Except I thought, for a while there, you understood what the others didn't. For a while there you seemed to see, with Professor Seidel - you were the only one willing to let me handle that one my way. But then something changed. Between us, and between everyone. Somewhere along the line ... something feels wrong, like it changed without us noticing when we should have noticed, but when I try to think about it too hard it just gets all fuzzy around the edges."
She's frustrated, months of having tried to sort things out having come to this, this sense of not quite being able to grasp something just out of reach and not having anyone to turn to for answers.
"I'm doing that thing where I don't make sense, aren't I?"
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Date: 2006-06-24 08:43 am (UTC)For all their unwillingness to see her as anything but sweet little Fred, there had been an equal unwillingness on her part to shatter all their illusions.
Except...
"Except I thought, for a while there, you understood what the others didn't. For a while there you seemed to see, with Professor Seidel - you were the only one willing to let me handle that one my way. But then something changed. Between us, and between everyone. Somewhere along the line ... something feels wrong, like it changed without us noticing when we should have noticed, but when I try to think about it too hard it just gets all fuzzy around the edges."
She's frustrated, months of having tried to sort things out having come to this, this sense of not quite being able to grasp something just out of reach and not having anyone to turn to for answers.
"I'm doing that thing where I don't make sense, aren't I?"